Diced Peaches

It's Amazing, the comfort you can find in a sharp object when no one else will comfort you.
Your day has been long and erritating and the inly thing staring in to your eyes longingly is the rusty razor blade sitting on the side of the tub from your last attempt at trying to make your self happy, ie shaving your legs. But now this razor can make you happy... You press it to your arm tears flowing down your face the first few drops of blood drip from your body, and you relize that the pain you just felt made your pain in dealing with life seem like nothing, that if you can survive this razor blade in your arm you can survive that break up or never being with someone ever again, because you know greater pain... So now everyday after school you come home and barracade your self in your room ignoring your parents simplistic questions, If only answering them would make it better, so you turn to your only freind who has earned a new spot in your bed side table drawer you stare down at your arm lifting up your long sleeved shirt that you are forced to wear cause after going to school with a cut twice the teachers started asking questions. Your arm scarred from a month worth of bullies, and ex boyfreinds over due assignments and failed test, leaving what is no better words can describe as a twisted tic tac toe board on your forearm, But today it was a cat game... You place the blade to your arm and begin digging in, your door swings open and the blade rushes through your vein completely  severing your artery, today you forgot to lock your door and now you stare into your mothers face as she hovers over you screaming for your father to call nine one one you begin to fade out and the last thing you remember is your mothers tears, the funny thing about tears is that you can't take them back, much like you couldn't take this back, And now you wish you could the mortition fights with your mother over having an open or closed casket funeral and you father spills his new outlet for his pain all over the couch so that the smell of beer surrounds you when you enter the house, but it's your mother whome is alone in all this everyone she loved has left her so now she hold a gun to her head and takes one more shot at getting everything back. She pulls the trigger and her pain is gone...